Decision and Self-Reflection

I had thought about the PHD problem and asked several friends for suggestions, and at last I make a decision that I won't to accept it.

Professor Zhou known that I was preparing on TOEFL and this is one reason, I believe, which he asked me to a phd program. However, the reason that I want to apply to foreign university is I wanna some resources and experience the life abroad. But actually, I am not suitable to deep research，and the input-output ratio is hot high. I won't spend 5 years in laboratory and my friends suggest me to consider my interesting thing, focus it and do it.

What is my interesting? The best suitable words to describe myself maybe, "I have no ideas". I had thought little to myself before. I heard that sophomore students in U.S university should consider their future career. Besides, there will be some advisers to help them choose a way matched them. In my that time, I had been preparing exams! No one told me that then I ignored it. Ridiculous.

I have 306 days before, the winter solstice this year. It's enough for me to think about the "idea" about myself. Every morning I will make a mission list and at night I'll check them. Get the ideas!